I'm Myself Forever

谁说谁变了...

2011-03-27T11:39:00.001+08:00

以前你期待我的到来，现在叫我待会儿再回来...

2009-09-12T22:43:00.000+08:00

I'm having a normal day today..., too normal it's boring...
too boring it affects my sanity..., damn..., at the end of the day, i'm in a v v bad mood...
irritated by everything in sight...
not good..., i've offended a lot of ppl, DAMN!!!

end...

2009-09-03T11:24:00.000+08:00

I have a bad feeling..., ppl say 台上一分钟，台下十年功...
It's soooooo, soooooooo true...

well..., a big grp is indeed harder to organise, but that shouldn't b an excuse for a lousy performance..., once u're up there on stage, ppl will juz judge US based on our performance UP THERE, they wun care abt anything else..., NOTHING AT ALL...
so this is bad...

i know we're not professionals YET, but since we're into this, we should really see ourselves AS a professional..., NO EXCUSE watsoever...

i'm terribly worried..., i'm soooooo not looking forward to it now...

to perform is to get a sense of satisfaction when ppl r looking at u with awe, now..., i dun think it's possible..., i juz hope we wun b a laughing stock up there..., that will do...

tsk..., i should learn to b more selfish!!

I'm back!!

2009-08-28T15:03:00.000+08:00

ok..., i was damn bored that's y i make a blog...
now i'm BORED again that's y i'm writing this...
LOL, anyway, v v v long liao, wan update all is impossible, so i juz write the recent events hor...
let's see..., i joined Esprimere in SIM, its a singing club, we errr..., sing :p
LOL

then we had outings like once every few days until i'm BROKE!!
NO MONEY!! GOT TO WORK!!
haizzzzzzzzz, i'm soooo v sianzzzzzzz now...

err..., next time when i'm bored i shall come back :p
GAHAHAHAHAHAHA

adios~~

My Most Beautiful Specs!!!

2009-01-12T19:13:00.002+08:00

KNS!!! today go play bball come back my specs destroyed!!!
_|_ whoever did it, pls, let him get it!!!
or maybe thank him? coz then i can buy new specs?
LOL
NO!
he/she SUX!!!
tell u, if he/she ever wear specs, pls let the specs get overrun by 16-wheeled LORRY!!!
haizzzzz........

i decide to buy contacts liao, dun wan buy specs liao, waste my money only -.-
that specs had followed me for years T_T
all the scratches T_T
the bents T_T
the green green slimy things that always accumulate at the small spaces T_T
:p
LOL

SHIT LA!!!
PEK CHEK!!!

My Blog Is Not DEAD!!!

2009-01-06T14:55:00.002+08:00

i'm juz busy mah, not dead la.
i shall write a lot to cover up.
let's see....., xmas i went to BBQ at a friend's house.....
then go home liao str8 away sore throat n sick.....
LOL
xmas nth much la, only that BBQ nia..., damn sian.....

then on 29th Dec i went to genting wif family, brought my nephew along.....
i become the babysitter for the journey....., play wif kids instead of going into the casino -.-
all the way till i'm back to SG -.-

31st night come back str8 away eat reunion dinner at home, then went to daren's house to play mahjong n i win quite a bit :p
i WAS losing DAMN BAD until Jeslyn (Justin) Pek Cai Xing helped me :p
LOL

then 1st jan i stayed at home i think...., i forgot liao, LOL
then 2nd jan my relative married, the celeb starts at 1, i finished sch at 11:30, somemore the lecturer drag till almost 12 -.-
very very very kan jiong, reach home liao still need to choose clothes....., but in the end i make it on time
LOL

then 3rd jan got sch -.-
then 4th jan morning i go play bball, then go back eat liao go katong shopping centre to sing song wif family, then after sing song go visit relative's house, then go eat dinner then go back home play left 4 dead till 2AM, then slp -.-

THEN 5th jan got to wake up at 5am!!!
prepare to send my mum n dad to harbour front THEN go sch!!!
then reach sch liao i slp in car coz still damn early (7:45)
when i woke up i see the clock....., F*CK!!! 8:45!!!
then i str8 away fly to the lecture room.....
throughout the lecture i felt like living zombie -.-
i felt very bad....., coz i can't reply ppl properly T_T
sorry Kayla T_T

i've decided to slp b4 12 EVERYDAY from today on!
unless VERY important things.....
ok, write enuff liao, time to slp.....

Thousand Years of Pain......

2008-12-15T14:11:00.002+08:00

i'm trying very hard....., too hard.....
remembering u is painful enuf....., forgetting u is impossible.....
whenever i think of u and the "near-zero" chance of having u....., my heart felt like stop beating....., hard to breathe.....
y do i even met u?
if this is only a joke, pls stop it.....
i can't take more of this.....
years of unbelievable pain n suffering.....
i'm disgusted by my own uselessness.....
others can do it, y can't i?!
i'll try hard to do it, despite the slim chance of succeding.....

eerrrr...., the above juz anyhow write for EMO ppl :p
LOL

After So Long~~~

2008-12-06T13:22:00.002+08:00

Very long never update liao...
after that torturing work, muz recuperate for some time so din blog (excuse) :p
GAHAHAHAHAHAHA

today i waste more "water" T_T
damnit, i think i'm not gonna b able to take the initiative ever la.....
haizzzzz.....

anyway, i'm gonna go TP to play badminton soon, i've decided to EXERCISE weekly!!!
i'm gonna make it!!!

adios~~~

Torturing Days....

2008-11-27T10:39:00.002+08:00

guess wat i've been doin for tuesday n wednesday!
continue torturing myself for that bloody meagre sum of $$$!
damn!

my knee pain!
小腿 pain!
大腿 pain!
shoulder pain!
脚底 also pain!
damn!

i move ard like cripple liddat!!!
damn damn damn damn damn damn!!!

today i'll stay at home whole day to relax~~~
DUN DISTURB!

No Title...

2008-11-24T13:52:00.005+08:00

Sunday....., supposedly relaxing weekend.....
KNS!
i'm working my ass off for juz a meagre sum of $$$!
all thx to cheapo "employer"!
i'll NEVER NEVER NEVER do sai gang EVER AGAIN
(unless it pays off very very well) :p
SHITTY ***

LOL, the day b4 that which is saturday i had fun though.
i went to marina square to meet up wif ryan n wee hong
(those 2 r LATE!!!)
daren got duty so cannot come
(so sad T_T) LOL

walk walk to the anime exhibition or wadeva it is called in suntec
hoping to see a pretty singer on stage.....
turns out to b some old uncle T_T
KAOZZZZZ
waste my $5 -.-

there i saw some lame sh*t lor.....
"ichigo from BLEACH" supposed to have a fair skin, i saw a tanned skin dude cosplay-ing him!!!
"NARUTO" supposed to b a guy, i saw a girl cosplay-ing him!!!
(dun ask me how i see she's a girl)
"sakura from NARUTO" is fat?!!! GOSH!!!
well it's an overall good experience.....

after the exhibition we went to eugina's 21st bday in downtown east.....
the carpark there is always FULL!!!
took me more than 10 mins juz to get a lot!!!
they should build more multi-storey carpark there la.....

her bday damn happening lor, the prawns is self-catch one.....
(of coz not she catch one, it's her relatives)
the sting ray specially chosen one -.-
the chicken wing straight away brought from malaysia in the morning!!!
(she claim it's kampong chicken, but i still dun believe) :p
her younger cousins playing firecracker juz to disturb us wif the smoke -.-"
LOL, anyway i had fun la, nth to say.....

and..... thx for the chicken wing arh :p
GAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA

STUPID!!!

2008-11-21T15:50:00.004+08:00

imagine a scenario.....
u r VERY thirsty.....
u've waited, waited n waited for WEEKS to get that cup of WATER!!!
when FINALLY that cup of water appears!!!
U simply..... THROW IT AWAY!!!

tell me it's juz a normal thing....., tell me i'm not stupid.....
i've waited for it to happen in WEEKS!!! almost MONTHS!!!
TODAY!!! it happened!!! but i din grab the chance!!!
wat am i doing?!!!

pls gimme another chance.....
i'll drink that cup of water for sure next time.....
pls pls pls, i wun waste anymore "water" liao.....

SIDETRACK: today while driving to sch, i met one *SSH*L* road-hogger, driving nissan latio, i politely ask him/her/that aqua to move away by high-beaming ONCE, he din react nvm, i high-beam again, overtime i fed-up i honk him, that bloody idiot point middle finger at me!!! still purposely slow down somemore!!! cannot drive fast go last lane la!!! 1st lane for overtaking!!! not for tortoise!!!
_!_ (-_-) _!_
*SSW*P*

What's Wrong With Me.....

2008-11-17T18:30:00.002+08:00

today's ECONS lecture is very jia lat.....
i really din know wat came over me.....
the anti-social part of me juz pop out liddat.....
man....., that's bad....., bad.....

now i've no mood to even write my blog....., haizzzzz.....

Disappointed.....

2008-11-15T15:32:00.003+08:00

today is saturday.....
POA lecture at 8:30 in the morning.....
ended 11:30.....
the lunch-time i've been waiting for so much disappoints me.....

i shouldn't have seen u on that saturday.....
now i'm waiting for that "coincidence" to happen again.....
it's a long wait....., too long.....
the feeling of despair clouded my every action.....
wat did i exactly do to deserve ALL these!!!

i should stop this.....
it's not good for my health physically n mentally.....

with despair,
Jokko

HAPPY BDAY MY NEPHEW!!!

2008-11-13T00:19:00.006+08:00

CUTE RIGHT?!

OF COZ, COZ HE IS MY NEPHEW :p

GAHHAHHAHAHA

today is his 1st bday..., he is kinda HUGE compared to his bro...

i dunno y....., maybe i fed him too much :/

LOL

i was damn busy the whole day la, somemore my mum coming here from indo to attend his small small party, then got to fetch her from Harbour Front.....

i'm not complaining or anything, i'm juz saying that i'm busy, that's all.

actually busy is a good thing for me....., at least i'm "moving" thus possibly reducing any fat accumulating in me :p

coz when there's nth going on, i'll juz b sitting in front of my com playing game, listening to music, chatting, blogging, etc......

imagine that kind of life everyday!

i'll b as fat as ERIC CARTMAN (southpark)

btw, the cake is DAMN DELICIOUS!!! it's actually ice-cream in disguise!!! from SWENSEN'S!!!

inside there is chocolate, strawberry and vanilla ice-creams!!!

damn, now i'm talking like ERIC CARTMAN! :p

anyway it's late now, gd night, tml got morning class T_T

LASER QUEST!!!

2008-11-10T18:36:00.002+08:00

yest (sunday) was a FUN day!!!
its my 1st FUN outing after soooooooooooooo long!!!
man, i went all the way to bukit batok to play laser quest with 20 odds ppl from EAI, that was FUN!!!
how i wish i had taken a lot of photo (imagine ppl point gun at u, i point camera at them) :p
gahaahahhahaha, not quite feasible.....

after that LASER QUEST, we went to eat KFC!!!
also very long time never eat KFC....., that day i went to 3 bloody places either i never went b4 (LASER QUEST) or VERY long time never go liao (KFC and.................. KTV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
my goodness!!! that's sooooooooooooooo fun!!!
and they sing damn GOOD!!!
that's my 1st time go KTV and feel that "man, i have to improve again.........."
LOL, its a motivation for me, they sing really well la....., OMG!

we sing until 11+ nia, coz the next day got sch T_T
haizzzzz, i wan more outing, MORE OUTING!!!

Dunno Wat To Write.....

2008-11-07T16:13:00.003+08:00

Another boring day....., dunno wat to do....., wake up in the morning, eat breakfast, play game a while, then bathe then eat lunch then go sch then at home doing nth again.....
MAN!!! my life so boring!!!

right now i'm DAMN FREE yet not happy....., but when i'm NOT FREE i also not happy.....
life is all abt contradiction -.-

ok, that's all la...., update again next time...., i'm hungry now....
:p

Normal Days

2008-11-06T15:03:00.003+08:00

i juz went to see ryan's blog....., damn it looks so....., so....., no comment.....
lol

today also nothing interesting happening....., so banal....., well, maybe when u wan to get good result is liddat one izzit? muz no life arh? go sch study, come home eat then study again then go shit then study again.....
haizzz

all ppl juz too busy to go out these times....., those in "jail" stays in "jail", those come out of "jail" liao too busy studying for upcoming exams......, by the time they finish exams liao then xmas coming....., then all places in SG damn crowded....., how to have fun liddat???
vexed vexed vexed.....

today haven end, i shall have fun now!!!
ADIOS~~~

EMO state

2008-11-04T22:56:00.002+08:00

when u have nth to do at home, not going out, no study mood, u'll go to EMO state.....
when u're in EMO state, everything funny goes into your mind.....

thinking abt younger days when you r still stupid n doing stupid things for stupid reason or no reason at all.....
thinking abt how nice if we can turn back time.....
man, today is not a good day.....
i'm totally moodless.......

i'm supposed to go out n sing, but something crops up.....
there's juz too little time left to have fun!!!
too little time = no fun!!!
DAMN!!!
i'm pissed!!!

y everyone so busy but i'm so free!!!
i'm free yet unable to have fun!!!
wat fun can i have when there's no friend to have fun with?!
haizzzzzz

go to sleep.....

OK!!! dun say i dumb!!!

2008-11-03T15:49:00.003+08:00

i finally figure out how to put that "tag box" or watever it is called!!!

MUAHAHAHAHA, dun say i'm dumb!

coz i know nth abt computer except for playing!!!

anyway....., yest was Edwin's 21st bday, seeing my sooooooooo many friends 21st bday party, i kinda regret not having one T_T

but nvm, it doesn't really matter anyway, i can always make my 22nd be my 21st :p

GAHAHAHAHAHA

I Learn Something....

2008-11-01T12:56:00.003+08:00

juz yesterday, i have this sociology lesson.
it was talking about labelling theory.....

basically it was saying that when a person is labelled as let's say, "slow-learner" by a lot of people and even his/her teacher labelled him/her as a "slow-learner" thus expecting him/her to be slow in learning, then that poor person will really be a slow-learner.....
so for example if a lot of ppl said that a certain someone cannot appreciate the ppl around him/her, then he/she will really cannot appreciate the ppl around him/her......

now, i find this "labelling theory" claim a bit funny (although a certain number of sociologists agreed to the theory)
i think they r stereotyping ppl, which is not really wrong bcoz i also believe out of 1,000 ppl, maybe only 1 will not b affected by this "labelling effect".

i was thinking, wat will it take for that 1 person to be able to "resist" the "labelling effect".....
super HIGH ego???
super duper HIGH level of confidence???
or they juz dun care abt wat other ppl think abt him/her???

while i was thinking, it kinda reminds me of this 1 person that really fall into this category.....
but still....., i dunno wat causes him to be able to resist it.....
this is different from STUBBORN, this is even more STUBBORN than STUBBORN, STUBBORN until cannot help one.....
but it may not b a bad thing....., well i dunno.....

and for who that person is, you can make a good guess but i wun reveal the name :p

Boring~~~

2008-10-30T13:54:00.004+08:00

Wat a life..., i went to sch early in the morning, sit in the lecture room, listen to the lecturer, go tea break, went back to the room, sit n listen again, then go home.....

at home, sit in front of the com check mail check friendster check facebook write this blog.....
haizzz.....

throughout the day, my WHOLE BODY is ACHING!!! thx to badminton yesterday.....

DAMN! juz that little exercise makes my body ache?!
jia lat.....

OH YA! i remembered something....., no matter how i say that i WAS a National Champion in Wushu, no one seems to believe me....., damn sad la....., i say i wan show them the medals n certs they also say i bought them -.-

wat u all wan me to do to have u all convinced???
maybe i'll take the pics of my medals then post it here someday.....

yea maybe i'll do that, soon soon, not now, feeling lazy :p

Something's wrong -.-

2008-10-29T20:58:00.002+08:00

i went for badminton in SP today..., funny, i fell damn tired after i reach home -.-
soooooooo weak....., old liao la...., last time is not liddat.....
anyway, it's fun though.....

i was supposed to play basketball straight after the badminton session.........
i can't really imagine me continue playing and still be able to reach home safely -.-
so no more basketball juz now, thank goodness....

i think something is really wrong wif me, it's either i'm getting too advanced in years to play badminton or i juz LACK EXERCISE!!!
i got to exercise more then.... *yawn*

I've finally started...

2008-10-28T22:03:00.001+08:00

OK!
I've finally started a blog....., feel like starting it a long time ago juz that i'm too lazy to start as i know nth abt HTML or watever it is called.....
anyway, i'm gonna try play around now, so i'll juz post this 1st...